To Move To Decide,is all our choice

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Currently doing my project hich got to hand in by tomorrow to my group leader before 8pm. After tons of readings just don't get into my mind. Wondering can I really still study or not. My this entire semester is just slacking, didn't study for my papers, already know I failed one of the paper. Seriously I know I am losing interest in studying and wasted alot time. already drifting away from school, from studies.

I always couldn't make up my mind properly. I am flicker minded, generally a loser.

I think I had been running from things, running away from my stress and my task. And this question kept popping out my my head ; 'Why others can do so easily but I can't?'

Remembered few weeks ago went over to my sister's place. She asked me how's my studies, as usual. But this time round I gave her a different answer. I said : I don't know, very stressful and I seriously couldn't cope with it. And I thought of not studying.
Then she asked me, 'If you don't want to study anymore, then what is your plan then? If you stop your studies now, you got to go army already.'
She neither encouraging to study nor don't study. But she's asking if what am I going to do next.
Just like my mum or my dad, they don't ask much of my studies before but than let me decide my own and they don't have any objections on anything.

Then my sister told me about my cousin, Edwin. Recently ORD from army and my sister told me that he actually got no plan yet.
After that I got to met him up and he told me that he is looking for a job now and there is one pending.

Screwed life...

Posted by DingShanBen at 3:07 PM