To Move To Decide,is all our choice

Thursday, November 30, 2006

Consider today as a SIAN day.
Had phyco ICA and hmmm........that's it.
Its really depressing for this kind of reactiong and the way to look at people and group people. damn you. and you call yourself a lecturer and a nurse?

Went for a walk at cwp before work.I was watching a guy playing Time Crsis 4 at the arcade.
He is so PRO and I can't believe what I saw. He actually had so good accuracy in a stage which is 97.2%!!!!!!! *^$#^%*$@#@
The way he played was so relax and his life is still full and completed whole story.

Anyway for my Time Crsis 2, my latest record is 84%

"Thinking about 'LIFE' "

Posted by DingShanBen at 2:56 AM

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

I just thought of a theory.

heard of people saying look forward in life and don't look back?

Life is like driving on road, look infront and don't always look back.
Sometimes have to look behind for cars to go forward.
As sometimes have to look at past to move on.
Concentrate the back too much, can get into accidents.
Looking the past too much, the life infront may have troubles awaiting.
Go wrong way, can find U-turns but not always have U-turns.
In life, go wrong way, there is still turn back but not always too.
Troubles like Red lights, stops you to go forward.
Change lanes,overtake others,reach destination earlier.
Overtake people and reach your goals younger.

haha this sounds lame.
anyway,good luck!

Posted by DingShanBen at 2:10 AM

Monday, November 27, 2006

Had my skills this morning! hmmm I passed! =) anw I think i should have fail and Mr Aaron should have failed me cause I didn't do very well.

Now I am super duper tired and can fall asleep anytime. I had my sleep at 6am this morning and woke up at 8+ for my skills at 9 but I reached the lab at 0930.The whole night I was doing my studies.... quite dumb lah,where I should be resting myself and not tiring myself.
Just now I still went for my training, soooo can I sleep now?!

very interesting that my friends in my group having same question why I never find a girlfriend?
LOL please man...who will want me?pretties? =x

I still aiming that watch which is very very impossible for my current state. hai~

I have a sucking life!!!! sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks!!!!

Posted by DingShanBen at 11:44 PM

Sunday, November 26, 2006

I have decided to change, o someone different. Though its ahrd, I still got to try.
Espically this year, facing so many problems and they never end.Don't know why I felt that I have not been doing things.Now life is something like so systematic and alot things got to follow.But still got to do.

Feeling so tired ad getting even more tired when time comes.
Its like nothing holds me for my alive, everything pulling me down.
Got critisize by friends, working people, school, even family also couldn't get any motivation.
Everything I said also got shot by them and like all I said are wrong.Its more like a life alone.
Drifting away...
Maybe I should say I don't understand everyone around me,not even simple understnading.

A lot people say 'first impression is very important'
I say BULLSHIT!
So what if first impression is good or bad?(this got nothing to do with anyone)
Isn't it better to understand than what shit first impression?
Eg. work/job interview : most of people will think that go for interviews need to wear nice in order to give interviwer a good impression so got higher chance that they will hire you.
Even if you wear very nice at first does it means you will wear very nice in the future?true that some people do,cause they still wish to give other people the 'good impression'
But what if he/she are thsoe couldn't work as their expection?even if he/she wear till very nice also no use and still got to fire the he/she.
Eg. again meeting new friends or already known friends : some people look at the oppsite's image and they judge if they can be friend anot or some they look at appreance if 2 of them can be together anot,anw this may be not true.
I say why not give other people a chance to do it?what is needed is time. Believe that portential in human need time to be digged out.
More chances better than no chance.
Giving more chance will get more chance to do, so more experience,better experience shapes better results.(seeing someone's characterer and understand the someone you need time and can truely know who is really who) in other side is relationships,you can never know 2 of you can be great after all :)
-will build good bonds
-more understanding
-good results
-more funs
What has been taking over this 'chance' is most probably money
I can say like 99% f the people just earn money and more money.
Eg. a company want to earn more money they will want to save time ( as what is said, time = money) so chance may be gone.Cause a cert does it.Give others more chance also wouldn't casue much harm too right?
anyway life is so complicated,so anything can be right or wrong.

Posted by DingShanBen at 1:50 AM

Friday, November 03, 2006

WOW! when was my last post?ever since sch started, I felt so busy and I dont know if I am really that busy.This semester I am the Group leader cum sub-group leader which quite a few things to handle.Today had lecture on emotions which contains 'STRESS' this topic.

Last week had a sociology tutroial,Mr Clamaus discuss about that male like us working this job will have a higher rate of getting a heart disease.hmm I think i am going to have it soon.haha.
Now I am thinking... Mr Clamaus tutorial is quite true,males easily feel the stresses working in a majority female working environment.Somehow there are alot expectency from the people in class which most of the time females wouldn't feel it.


3 weeks already and I didn't do much studies and I really hope that I can have the slacking life like last year!thinking of it everyday,when can I have the break....
This is what I always do or have to do in a week:School then work/training.
The only time I can relax myself is after I reach home which I can play maple fo few hours,2 or 3. comparing to last time that 14hours its so much differnet.

How I wich I can buy a television with theatre system in my room or living room. One 32" in my room or/and 50" in the living room. NOW NOW....

Can I change a job?Home-Fix nothing much too..honestly the main factor is the pay,about 60% and the rest goes to..........better don't post it out.

talk about my work company.Had the annual D&D,dinner and dance, at SAFRA Yishun 2 days ago.We got to play the airgun 10M range shooting.its very fun though my soce isnt that great which is 41/50 and 44/50.haha and I really don't have the luck in lucky draws.On that day soooo many prizes to be won, I didn't even get a single hair.damnit.......

My 'Time Crsis' dropped by a bit.. the accuracy trying to hit 90% but until now highest is only 81%. now drop to only 78%...

Alright not that bad afterall. =)

Posted by DingShanBen at 5:16 PM