To Move To Decide,is all our choice

Friday, April 21, 2006

‎Today after my class,I walk a quiet road towards the mrt station.Came to thought of what I have been thinking these 3 days.Deep thinking.I hated myself.I am feeling so empty,so lonely.A bus parking beside the road,on the glass it reads,Catholic High School.School.gave me a feeling of lost.Where am I now?I asked myself.I remember that I had a school before,Woodgrove Secondary School.It makes me recalled my schooling feelings.Poly life,it feels so different,never give me a sense of belonging in there.Comparing to secondary school,I felt that I am wanted.Friends were so close,do things together,share same interest and wear same uniform.Now in poly,somehow got no choice but have to be together with those posted to same class.During secondary,we were developing and enjoy a lot,whereas poly we share that makes me prefer last time.something like we don't share same things but have to be placed together in a group.I walk passed a stadium and saw a school having sport's day.Their cheers and shouts,wearing same colour and teachers joining,I found out that I lost something for sometimes.Lost the sense of together,the close feeling.Now is like more alone,never get to enjoy that past again.Saw a group of boys wearing school uniform, reminds me of my AVA people.At a shelter,there is couple in school uniform sitting there talking.Its really nice and I envy them alot.Until now, I seen people ignorance,leaving or even walking away in silence.Its a very bad feeling and I hated these a lot.Feel very sad if people leaving.Just don't want to have this to happen.and never.

Posted by DingShanBen at 5:43 PM